Extremely Loud And Incredibly Close
I fear watching this might bring me to my knees in a bout of full on PTSD, or it might just be part of what is likely to be a lifetime of healing.
I think I’ll wait and see what others have to say. I’ll definitely wait for the DVD, I don’t think this is something I could watch in public.
I found this movie to be extremely triggering. I spent most of the movie trying not to cry but I also found it extremely hopeful. Recovery from ptsd and trauma is a very intense and painful process. Watching this little boy meltdown constantly was a pretty accurate portrayal of what it’s like to deal with ptsd daily. The phobias, the emotional meltdowns, panic attacks, anxiety, the numbing, the freezing up, etc.
I think the thing that made me cry most was he felt so alone in his process only to later find out his mother was actually one step ahead of him the whole way. From a very personal place, I have found in my own experience that a parent can cause more damage when you need them most. As someone who constantly struggles with a lot of anger for what can feel like a lifetime of letdown, it really brought up a lot for me.
I constantly find myself asking people, “when does the anger go away?” And the answer I receive back the most is usually, “I am not sure it does. But it does get easier.”
