Daily Gratitude.
Last night, I went to the diner with an old drinking buddy. This is the second friend I have known to get sober. It’s funny because both friends came in on their own and we sort of ran into each other accidentally.
We were laughing last night about how when we were drinking we didn’t really like each other. And with the other friend, we would get black out wasted together and always drunkenly proclaim we were going to be BEST FRIENDS FOREVER. That never happened because I always forgot about her in the haze of next day’s hangover. I must have taken her number a dozen times.
In each case, we were so self-involved in our own pain that we didn’t see the pain of the person next to us. It’s really funny how that happens. I can’t believe I am friends today with these two remarkable people. I was incapable of being anyone’s friend for a really long time. I was stuck on survival mode for so long that at times I could barely function.
Things change, life moves on. Slowly, slowly, you wake up. A friend said to me last week, “There are no bad people, they are just asleep. Someday they will wake up too.”
It’s nice having friends to wake up to.
