December 2011
Manifesting your Destiny, why your words matter...
Can I just mention how fucking different this New Year’s Eve is from 2 years ago?!!?!? 3 years ago….4 years ago….5 years ago…6 years ago….
Always the same. I would go to whatever party I decided to crash, get wasted, pick up some random gomer and then wake up the next day feeling pretty shitty.
What a difference 2 years makes. It’s so amazing to me that...
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Change is PAINFUL: tips that have helped me.
January seems to be a good month for making changes and it seems like a lot of people have some really great goals. When I decided to make some major changes to my life two years ago, it wasn’t easy and it definitely wasn’t overnight. In order to become this bright shiny and new person, I had to go through a lot of messy, icky, chaotic crying, kicking, and screaming. Change is not...
Garmin Forerunner 405
I can not get this motherfucker to work properly. I feel like I almost need to take a class to figure it out!
Also, I am excited to run the Emerald NYE run. It feels really good to start off this year doing something 100 percent just for me. I want to do something that really sets the tone for this year.
Also, my parents bought me fancy running pants so now I have to start training on Sunday...
2011, I regret nothing.
I have being seeing a lot of lists of 2011 grievances going around on the internet lately and I can say for the first time in my life, I don’t regret one thing that happened this year. Lost friends, new apartment, family arguments, petty fights, etc.
This year was the 2nd most painful year of my life, 2000 was number 1. I am so incredibly proud of how far I have come and everything I have...
OMG! Downton Abbey Christmas Special Trailer!!!! →
Also, photos here. You can find video here after it airs on Christmas night. I am so excited for this.
young adult. spoilers, i guess, but whatever →
nudawn:
via 6od
So I really wanted to write a proper review about this movie which I thoroughly disliked, but I can’t think of anything to say that 6od didnt say already. This review (click link) nails it.
Edit: If I dont say this shit out loud its going to keep bothering me
Character Arch
I keep reading that this is a character study, which is why there is really no kind of plot and...
How to Identify Toxic Friends →
paleseptemberr:
Do you have a pal who reminds you more of a possessive boyfriend than a friend? Maybe Snow White’s stepmother or a huge butthead of a boss? I’ve had more than enough experience with these energy-suckers over the last twenty-odd years and if any of those examples are making your heart pump, there is a good chance you are dealing with the BP oil spill of your social life.
Take...
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elledeau replied to your post: Revenge is not a story about redemption.
Absolute best drama on network television. Period. It started as a guilty pleasure for me and now the guilty is LONG gone.
I fucking know! Madeline Stowe used to be my favorite actress when I was a teenager. She is so gorgeous.
Revenge is not a story about redemption.
It’s a story about revenge and it says so in the pilot. If you aren’t watching this show, you should be. The first 10 episodes are now on ABC.com. I have been sick all week so it’s kept me busy. Loosely based on The Count of Monte Cristo, it’s about a girl that sets out to destroy the wealthy set in the Hamptons. I love this show.
What’s interesting about this...
Dance or run, dance or run, dance or run?????
I can’t decide what to do for NYE. My options are a sweaty dance in soho with over a 1000 people OR a 4 mile run in Central Park. I don’t know what to do!!!!
Is anyone else doing the Emerald Nuts Midnight Run? I really want to do it!
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Update on my non profit idea...
I am definitely moving forward with my idea. I have been running it by a lot of people and so many have said to me that they would love to be involved with it.
I have been doing a lot of writing and meditating on it. Asking questions like, “what would program structure look like?”
Next week, my mother and I are going to sit down and write a strategic plan. I love strategic...
In which we move to a new and awkward stage of our...
I am one of those people who runs every single little thing by their mentor. She knows me better than any single person in the world. She knows every little inane detail of my life. It’s a pretty extraordinary thing to be known so well by one person. It’s also really annoying.
I am not dating yet, but I am slowly inching toward dating. It’s been almost 2 years and I still...
644 Days...
I went from 156 to 131.
Wow, 25 pounds is a lot.
Losing weight takes fucking years. But apparently, that’s the right way to do it. I can tell you, this didn’t happen overnight. It took a lot of hard days, mistakes made, sugar binges, feeling extremely uncomfortable and tears. Lots of tears.
A day at a time, sometimes a minute at a time, anything is possible.
Does this shirt make me look fat?
“Alice, you can’t look fat because you have no fat.”
Some of the women in my department were discussing how much weight I have lost in 2 years. It’s really interesting, I can’t see myself very clearly AT ALL. But when I listened to them talk about how skinny I have gotten, I feel like I sort of got it today.
Things that have contributed to my weight loss:
1. I...
in which the new Muppets movie solves the problem...
Just when I think I have nothing in my life figured out, an hour of my life changes everything and gives me a new perspective. One of the things I have learned in recovery is that some things we must absolutely share about (feelings, alcohol, drugs, triggers, chocolate, food, shopping, gambling) and other things are much harder to share about (love, relationships, jobs, friendships.) The reality...
Solving my life problems.
I just got off the phone with my mentor and she ended the conversation with, “why are you so angry at me? I am trying to help you.”
I haven’t been feeling well for a couple weeks. Mentally, life has seemed like a lot of work. Some days, I feel like I am in actual pain over having to do the most menial tasks. And days like today, I sort of feel just ok. The most frustrating...
I got sleep paralysis for the first time last... →
adeandabet:
onemoretimewithfeeling:
thewordunheard:
My attitude toward sleep paralysis in the past has been a little bit like a neocon’s toward waterboarding: it only lasts for a second or two, how bad can it be?
It is scary as hell. That is the answer. It is awful and no one should have to go through it. I had also somehow fallen asleep with cactus arms, which only served to further the...
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Wednesday Gratitude 12/6/11
Watching someone speak their truth to a crowded room full of strangers for the first time is the most amazing gift. Especially when you are apart of the journey it took to get to that moment.
When I first started sponsoring women, I was pretty soft handed. I would rearrange myself around the person so that they would feel comfortable with my suggestions. I quickly learned that that shit does...
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I am starting my own nonprofit.
I know I said that I would never do it. But today at lunch, in the middle of a conversation with someone, it came out of my mouth before I even had time to think.
The person replied, that sounds great, how do I get involved.
And in the two hours since that conversation- this idea of mine has grown and other people have contributed to it. It’s so exciting.
After doing some research, I...
This Holiday Season, I don't have to destroy my...
I know a lot of people are afraid they aren’t going to make it through the Holiday Season sober, but for me it’s pretty easy. December was the month I used to BURN EVERYTHING DOWN. My behavior was pretty unacceptable. I would crash parties and black out all over town like it was my job. By the time, January rolled around, I found that I would often have to avoid everyone till March...
high sobriety: what was once a social stigma is... →
goodeggs:
”..the recovering alcoholic is sort of the paradigm of the model citizen — someone who has come to terms with himself on the inside and the social world around him and so speaks from a position of moral virtue.”
I like to call it self-acceptance.